Going to Wisconsin!
Wish me luck, I'm going to Wisconsin!!!
I also did my shoot yesterday and got a few decent portfolio pics. After deciding whether I should let you all laugh at me, I posted the better ones here. (assuming that works). They're mostly okay except for the ones where my belly looks huge (yup I gained weight), and my face looks bizzare. The face I have an explanation for though. I'm used to cameras with a flash so I was trying to do an expression but I wasn't sure when the camera took the photo so sometimes there were mistimed. So, if I look retarded, that's why.
It's okay though because I decided yesterday to put all this body bullshit behind me. I'm going to stop worrying about it, talking about it, or thinking about it. Instead, I'm really going to focus on either getting a real job or working on selling my talents. I'll still try to work in the industry, but I'm not going to take rejection personally anymore. I might not have what it takes to make it big there, but I'll find some other means of success. I just need to have faith. Hopefully, once I gain faith things will be a little easier all around.
Anyway, I've packed up for the trip and I'll be gone 3-4 days. You probably won't hear from me, though I am bringing the laptop in case they have free broadband access. I doubt it, but it should be a nice hotel for the price I'm paying. At least I hope so. It always baffles me why hotels/motels are so expensive. I mean, the cheapest ones you find are like $40 a night, and that's for Motel 6! How much can it cost to run one of those places? I mean, yeah, you have laundry to do and rooms to clean but it can't be THAT expensive to just give someone a bed, right? Arrghhh I wish we had old fashioned flophouses still. That's about all I need really. Keep in mind, I can sleep in the Jag pretty well assuming someone will let me out of the backseat in the morning or I get the doors fixed.
For the literati out there, I'm citing my books-on-tape list. As the Jag only tunes WNIC, I've borrowed a ton of tapes from the local library. For those of you not in the area, WNIC is easy listening and is playing Xmas carols exclusively. All this does is remind me I have no money for presents or a family. No wonder so many people kill themselves this time of year! It might be a rock station when we hit Indiana, but I doubt it. Stupid stuck antenna. Anyway, I usually can't stand pulp fiction, but I've decided to go for variety here because I don't know what Dan likes. The only advice I got was "something humorous is always good". Yeah, not a lot of that in Brighton...but oh well.
Sweet and Sour (Andy Rooney)--closest thing I could find to humor. That and I always liked Andy Rooney. Maybe that explains some things, but maybe it was just because he was the only person I understood on 60 Mins when I was 6.
Angela's Ashes--still haven't seen the movie and doubt we'll play it on this trip as it's 15 hours of the 16 hour drive!
Girl's Guide to Hunting and Fishing--girl coming of age story
TimeQuake--Vonnegut sci-fi author who I love (haven't read this one yet)
White Oleander--kept seeing it on Border's displays so grabbed a copy as it sounded mildly interesting. Woman kills a lover and gets sent to prison while daughter fends for herself.
Omerta--Mafia book, read the Godfather before.
That's it, except they're really long when they're on tape. Keep that in mind.
I have also learned why people drink so much coffee. I've taken two cups this morning and I'm flying through the work I've slacked off doing for so long. Of course, I have literally no other food in the house, but coffee is good as long as your tummy can stand it. I'll even prove I have no other food to you now! In fact, for those of you who haven't inspected my fridge lately, Coolie can tell you a good story about how I sometimes eat until there's nothing left. He opened my fridge once while on the phone and yelled to his friend "She's really out of food! All she has are two beers, an eighth of a quart of milk, a little water, and half a stick of butter!" Yup, when I'm broke it gets THAT bad. Here's what I currently have on hand.
1/4 box of Grape Nuts (no milk)
Oh, and I'm out of toilet paper too, and when you're eating buttered rice twice a day you got to shit a lot. So, the stopgap solution is interesting. I'll tell you if you want to know ;) but I'm not going to subject everyone to it. Let's just say it's nice, absorbant, and disposable.
Yeah, it looks big when it's written out, but at lot of the items you can't make anything with. So, in reality, I have about five meals left. Well, meals my size anyway. If you're going with standard portions I have about two. So, hopefully, I can make a little money next week to buy some food! Hell, maybe I'll be super lucky and Wisconsin will hire me! Send some good thoughts my way, I sure could use them.