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Staying Single and New CDs Well, for anyone who talks to me in the next month or so, I don't know what's going on with me, so don't ask. I've decided I'm not going to know that for at least two months, if not three because I'm a Piceses and I really don't feel like making a decision about anything right now. I'm enjoying the job for that reason. Yeah, I went back to smoking this weekend, but I get the feeling that my co workers are stoners too, so as long as I passed that first screen I should be fine. Say some prayers. They didn't talk to me Friday though, so part of me thinks I'm safe. Besides, I've learned enough of the order taking system to feel fairly confident there, though my nickname is Happy Pills cause I'm always super perky on the phone. (If you're bored, email me and I'll send you the number.) As for the whole dating thing, that's not really working out. I feel bad, but both Jeff and I are broke right now, so the gas toll is heaping up on my end. I didn't factor in the high cost of transportation for a simple job in Novi, but with the rising prices I'm paying about $2.40 a gallon regularly right now. This is killing my wallet for extra trips as I'm trying to spend most of my money on fueling the car for work. On top of that, I get the feeling that he's too busy for me. Its nice to know he has a life, but I need someone who will be around more without my doing all the work. And, like most people, he's got some small issues that bother me already, which tells me that down the line I'll only get more annoyed. I am still interested in seeing him when we can work it out, but I've revised my decision to go jumping into monogamy as a solution to my problems. Speaking of partners, Dan and I have been spending the weekend together. Some things are still awkward, but I enjoy his company. I know its easy to fall back into a relationship that's like an old pair of jeans, especially now that we're really working on getting those pens out of the pockets so they stop stabbing us, but part of me really needs to sow some wild oats without restrictions right now. As much as I like knowing someone will always be there for me, I hate dealing with feeling chained down. I need some time on my own to figure out what I can do on my own, where I can go, and how I can rely on myself more. I know I have the basics of life down already, but dealing with social and emotional issues perplexes me, and I can't learn that except by experience. Though ill advised by some, I'm not shutting the door here either. The relationship was really good at some points, which I think might be reached again, after some issues have finally been resolved. As for Willow, we're doing fine. I rearranged the bedroom and steam cleaned the house yesterday so I passed out at 7pm to wake at 4am. I smoked another bowl so I could sleep longer, and not have seriously messed up dreams like Friday night. It worked, though calming her down after each hourly visit to the loo was difficult. She now lives in my room, but her papers are still in the office. I don't mind that, though. She can have that as mostly her room as I don't use it that often myself. Oh, I did want to mention that I ordered some CDs from Amazon. Music is getting boring in my car so it's time to waste $40 on some newer (to me) stuff. so, here's the short list, pardon my nerdiness. Best of Bob Marley & The Wailers I can't afford a lot of CDs at one time, so I'm working on the collection slowly. I think I posted up what I already own, and I'm trying to get more of a variety than several by the same band. I used to have a complete BNL collection, but after two CDs by the same group/artist I usually get sick of them, unless they change styles or do something completely different. My other problem right now is that all alternative music sounds alike, so I've been picking up more Reggae, Ska, and Jazz these days (almost bought a Bosstones album but all their songs sound alike too) in protest of the continual crap being produced by the alternative music industry. So, variety helps. Hopefully, they'll get here before the end of the week! Daphne |