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Hospital Stuff Tired Rant If anybody from the Dland crowd has a minute, check out divadesign's blog and let me know which of the new template I should change to. I have been debating about using one because she has a few nice sexy ones that might match the tone of this thing better. I might not do it for a while though because I am having enough trouble doing school and cleaning, much less washing my hair!, than to take on too many extra projects. Yesterday was all right. I went into the hospital and things went good. I learned that the sedation they keep giving me doesn't work right on me so that is why it only knocks me out for two hours instead of the full four. So I woke up with half an hour left of their work but I didn't suffer. It wasn't painful but when they inflated the balloons inside of me I had to shit like a maniac! A little weird on the brain but I got through it. The IVs were the worst. They didn't hurt but he kept going for the tiny vein he always tries but never works out. I let him and Dan said I should have made him get the RN then but I didn't care. The needles they use on me are small and hell, if he wants to prove himself wrong yet again why not? I did get to class on time and got through my day. I lost it a bit at my tech writing prof when she told us we needed a draft for monday and the homework. Jeebus I have so much to write! I calmed down after she pointed out that whining doesn't help in the real world but I am losing it. I can get it done though, I just need to stay sober and get through things. I did decide to smoke last night though. Not much, just a bit and it was nice. I decided that I shouldn't worry because I don't even know if they liked my stuff (will show you my stuff tomorrow) but they said they got it and would let me know in a few days. I am still looking for a car too and that's also making me insane grr... And I am tired. Had sex last night that felt all right but I wasn't super into it. I wanted it because I love having Dan up in me but I couldn't get close to cumming. It was fun but soon we were both tired out. He wanted to keep going because he was hard but it was after midnight and I was dead tired so I was like blah...let's sleep. I'm getting old fast it seems. Hopefully I can get some energy up for the weekend other than neurotic energy. Too much school makes Daphne not care about appearance, sex, pot, fun. I guess I should take that back. I have been jacking off like mad lately, at least once a day, and fantasing. I think I do that to escape working on papers more than anything else, though I will admit I have dirty thoughts whenever I can. Daphne |