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end of school!! slight jealousy WHOOO HOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's the last day of work and school for me for THREE WEEKS! or possibly MORE!!! It's an ungodly time of happiness!!!! I never get vacations. The U is rather stingy about passing them out and as I have no work or finals I am super excited to have some time off to do nothing. Well, the thesis, but I can deal with that because I won'tn be super stressed out...oh imagine that! and no more waking up at 7am for my stinking dayjob! oh, oh, too good to be true!!! I finished the paper and I decided that I no longer care about it. It's done and I just want it off of my desk. I also decided that I am going to buy a new backpack so my computer won't break because I need one. Mine has served me for about four years but it's pretty dead and I found some new bags at MBS that I want and I deserve one. So I am getting one. Tricks appear to be working out for Friday, one for certain anyways at 10am. A little early to be up but at least I might be able to afford the video games for the family. I hope to turn over a few more clients before I head up north so that I can do the xmas shopping. I am so santa-y right now too, I want to go shopping, the shopping of happiness!!! I did get a bit down yesterday though because I ran into Top Hat again and took him home. I offered him a bit of my celebratory bottle of wine (you can have some too if you stop by) but he didn't want any. We talked about stuff and he told me about his girlfriend and I got stupidly jealous. I didn't tell him that but the air was tense and after neither of us had anything to say and I was buzzed and starting to choke up he left. I talked about it with a friend online and wrote the rest out in my paper journal and it's stupid jealousy. I know that nothing would ever work out between us and that's all right but I guess I feel hurt over the rejection. The fact that he basically told me that he would never trust me because of my sexual nature. I don't like that because I don't lie and the few times I have said that I was going to be monogomous I have been. So that hurts. It also hurts that the woman he does love is prettier than I, or at least I think she is. It just brought me back to the whole hogging thing where fat girls are fun to fool around with but not to date. And I got depressed about that. Then I realized that it's not worth it because Top Hat is an ass and I love Spk and he gives me so much more freedom and fun than anyone else ever could. I was just being a brat that disliked not getting her way because I have learned that there is very little in the world that I can't have. Enough of that though. Word to wise Lean Cuisine is some good shizzat, even when they sell it for $2 a pop. I am rather impressed. Daphne |