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Femme Party Somehow I had this theory that I was going to be able to get through at least part of my American Culture homework but that doens't look to be the case. I have both journals to update and one hour in which to do it in so I doubt that I will get to doing my homework. I am pretty far behind on all of it though so I should get to it right when I get home from things. The Bentley shouldn't be bad today though, I am just shooting pictures and then getting the hell out of there. I could stay there for the full 4 hours but I don't think I will. I have my Vagina interview today too and I am doing the Angry Vagina monologue so I need to not miss that. Last night was pretty fun. I went to the femme party and had a nice time. Got a bit too loud and drunk, but hey that's me! I realized everyone there though was at least in their mid 20s if not late 20s and that was a bit disturbing. They were all nice women but I portrayed myself as newly out and I must admit I was much more confused about my gender than they were. We had a nice time talking about what femme means to us but by the end of the night, I was wondering if I was an inner butch or something. I can kind of relate to being femme but I kind of want to be butch and when the topic turned to dating things got interesting... There was one hot chick there though that I really liked until we started getting into relationships and then she told us that she was straight *great, straight chicks at the lesbo meeting, kill my hopes now* and had a boyfriend. Another girl also admitted to being straight in that she was already married. By the end of this I was rather confused as to who was straight, gay, or even female. One of the most awesome women there, who I am sure was attached to someone, went through a big male phase and now insists on gender neutral pronouns for her. We also had a few other trans people there too so that was a bit different. But yeah, so now I am confused about being a dyke. Turns out most of the femmes like loving butchs and I will probably get nowhere with that. I felt a bit accepted there though and I liked talking with them but after discussions of family and such I felt pretty isolated. I mean, my background and my current state of affairs of being a butch inside femme outside, leaves me rather a special case even among special cases. It kind of sucks, ya know, because I can relate to so many people but only with a tiny bit of myself each time. Open up the whole life and it's pretty strange... We did talk about places to meet women though because with Common Language gone there aren't a lot of dyke friendly places in Ann Arbor. So I got some info on where to hit but I still feel pretty alone. Daphne |