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drug conversations and shaving hey all, it's the crack of damn here, 5:30am, and I am going to give this one to you now and hopefully I will have some time to let you know how the labratism goes. at the moment though I figured that I should do what happened yesterday instead of waiting to see if I survive the day. I am not too worried about it but I am hoping that it isn't painful or too uncomfortable. I know that I can call stop when I want to but i want to last through it too, ya know? anyway, yesterday was a long day but it was all right. I spent it in the office because next week my big boss will be on vacation. he isn't making the same mistake twice though, I am not in charge this time and we have plenty of projects given to us in hopes that we will work. I know not having work and not being clear on work was part of the problem last year but I think the other part was our receptionist, the last slim receptionist we had, was kind of a bitch and told everyone that we were just hanging out online and not really doing anything to cover her own butt. reception at my work isn't a high traffic thing. you do a few officey things too but mostly you answer the phone and a lot of them end up surfing the web ALL DAY. and so, I think to not look bad she squealed on us. but anyway...the highlights of the day were my drug conversation with Troma and my shaving. Troma is awesome and when he came in I remembered to ask what the hell he gave me in those tabs because I really liked them, okay not the grouchy part but the rest was nice. He told me that they are Stacker 3s and what I enjoyed was the amphetimines, which the other variety of Stackers don't have. they were very nice and I told spk later this information, apparently Troma gets them at Meijer's, but he is a little nervous about letting me have access to too many of them because of my anorexia. I will admit that I liked not wanting to eat, it was nice. part of my eating disorder is that I eat out of boredom though, which is why I hunt for food at lot at spk's house when I get squirrly, and while on the pills I was too hyper to care about eating. recently I have considered diet pills though because spk's huge dick has ruined my gag reflex so bulemia is pretty much out, unless I work it with a pencil or something, and I am not too good at fasting. honestly though, I should just get the lipo and a tummy tuck or something. every woman has a part of herself that she hates and in my case it's my tummy. I am pretty self confidant and I try not to dwell on it but if I had a flat belly I wouldn't worry so much about my size. my stomach looks gross though because it hangs out in front of me and when I lie on my side it looks like someone has cruelly attached a huge round barrel to my middle. even when I suck it in and look in the mirror, and I like my hourglass shape head on, I can see the round protrusion and it ruins it for me...I don't think lipo would do much more than take off two inches of fat on top of the distended tummy or whatever, I think I need it rolled up and tucked. and yes, I will probably get the surgery when I earn enough to do so. I don't like the idea of plastic surgery and I don't want to undergo lots of it but the stomach issue has bothered me for years and if I could get on that reality TV show that gives you free surgery I so would. but I want the pills to party with. they are kind of fun and i like being that hyper. I just need to be in a place where the hyper would help ;) Troma's awesome though. he has really good hookups for other drugs that most of my buddies always stare at me for asking about...usually everyone out here only deals weed and not acid, E, or anything interesting. Troma though knows about the cool stuff and hopefully i can land some of that before he heads back into the desert at the end of the summer. as for the shave job...it turned out really well. I highly recommend Aveno to anyone who has sensitive skin. I have never used shaving lotion and the process to be hairless everywhere took forever but the Aveno worked wonders. My armpits and legs look like they never grew hair and my crotch is VERY soft. It took me a long time to do my crotch but I got almost all of it and it looks rather hot and felt really nice to do. so credit where it's due, Aveno without fragrence and very hypo allergenic works wonders. sadly, I have to keep in mind looking for the hypo allergenic stuff for the rest of my life...yay weird skin conditions. anyway, I got about fifteen minutes or a bit more before I start hiking for the hospital. wish me luck! Daphne |