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cannot relate hi all, I am atttempting to rebuild a computer while typing this and I am unsure if I used the right boot disk to start with. It matches the network card but not the IP address and I am hoping that the machine can rectify that but if it cannot and I have to pay a lot of attention to it I apologize for the vagueness of the entries. D wrote me yesterday a nice email even though I had planned on phoning her already. not like she knew about the plans, and it is odd of me not to keep up with people I love for a few days, so I don't mind that she emailed. I phoned her later that evening, after a beer with Cody, which we will get to later, and we had an okay chat. I didn't have too much to talk about, work, thesis, dull stuff...but she told me about how she is learning to love herself and I felt a bit bad. somehow, and maybe it is because I am super selfish, but I have really never had that problem. Then again, I haven't had kids, and my siblings to raise, and tons of responsiblity. I have just had me and what I needed came first, as always. So I feel bad that I can't really relate to her on some levels, and I feel young. terribly young. I can't say that I have had problems like that...although I did think until I met her that my home life was horrible, but guess what? everyone in my generation and the one before it had horrible home lives...so most parents suck in some form or another. It's not a huge surprise anymore, the surprise is to find good ones. But I am bumming and I want to cheer her up a bit. I want her to love herself because she is awesome and in my young near sighted way, I cannot see why she shouldn't. but then again I am a bitch. i do want to apologize to those of you out there whom I ignored while playing games on yahoo last night. I generally play one game per section of reading and it's usually pretty quick. for some reason though I wasn't getting your IMs through yahoo, even though that was on, I was getting them through the system IM which sucks because it constantly interrupts the game with about four people saying hello. so I decided to be a bitch and ignore the lot of ya. so, sorry. other than talking to D, having some sleazy guy at the bar hit on me and repulse Cody was the highlight of the day. He was kind of a prick, I guess, her radar went off, but I tend to give people too much of the benefit of the doubt. He did creep me out a bit near the end and I can believe that he was a predator but I left with her and we chatted while I froze my butt off waiting for the rain to hit. I think we've had enough rain by the way. I played with my footwear this morning and realized that I need to repair almost all my shoes. I don't really know how though and I am thinking that it will involve either rubber cement or superglue. The super nice sandals I have need their bottoms glued on again, the normal sandals which I love and are dying need some strap work, and the rocky shoes need to be shrunk, which I don't think that I can do so they might end up in spk's hands. I wish my feet wouldn't shrink sometimes because I have old shoes at my father's house that are really nice and interesting but I can't wear them because my feet rattle around in them too much. I am thinking of the infamous flame shoes...too hard and easy to ruin my toes in. anyway, that is today's ramble. I hope everyone else is having more fun that I am. I already snipped at my little boss for getting in my way this morning. It will be a long day. no outgoings yet, no returns, just the three of us here, in this office, together going mad. daphne
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