four girl fuck contest?
another weekday morning and I feel like shit...well greasy something anyways. I haven't bathed in a day and my hair is getting that lovely greaseball stage where I start to question people's beliefs about letting your hair develop its natural oils...in my case too much oil. Personally, I like shampooing every day and I tend to think that it works. when it let it go for a few days I can make it into a mohawk with no problems but other than that...there isn't a value to it.
I am almost recovered from the party on Friday night. I got a little burned out, which sucked, but I am doing ok. I usually have to heal for a few days after a big event, especially now because I haven't been doing things like that in a long while. It was fun though and I am glad that I went. Hopefully, I can go again soon.
I know, that i stated that i would do some pics but I never got around to it. I am sorry...but I haven't even been able to update my paper journal lately, I still haven't talked about either the meeting or the orgy yet in there, so I tend to think that I was busy for a good cause.
of course, I only ended up finishing the notes on one book, Cornell, but at least I got something done. I also learned the lesson of always take notes while reading, otherwise you have to go back and reread which takes FOREVER!
I have a handle on Cornell though and I am going to start my Endnote database today so let's hope that that goes well.
*sigh* sorry not much to talk about today...mostly just contemplative. I am still thinking about the woman that spk found online who does these four girl fuck contests that he is looking to apply for. suppossedly he can win some money at it but I feel a bit jealous already because I probably won't be able to go and he'll probably get to keep a nice chunk of change, unlike my escort stints which I used to split with him. It's not that I want the money either, but I am thinking that I might keep the separete modeling money I make this summer because I don't have too much to live on. And yes, I will probably do the sucky thing and deposit the shit in the bank...that's how badly I need to work. I know, he does the driving for me, and yes he does cover my ass, so splitting the work with him usually makes sense and in the fuck contest case I wouldn't be doing anything but trusting him to protect himself and have a good time...I guess...
and no, I shouldn't be worried or jealous about it because I have been getting a lot of attention and he needs some of the same but DAMN! I wish that I could get four girls alone with me sometime...
ah well, can't fight emotions. I am sure that we will talk it out and I know that he needs the money as despretely as I do. So I am not worried about him keeping it, besides maybe he will spend a bit of it if it is big enough to go to the Schvitz with me? or Cedar Point?
and as for the jealousy thing, maybe we could do a trade. you get this, I get to fuck that nice older virgin I met on the internet...hehe. yea, I finally met a guy, 34, who is a virgin and is looking for a partner. I want to break a guy in, I think that could be fun.
besides, I don't even know yet if they would select him, although I cannot see why not, they claim to have contests fortnightly, and if he would have time to go.
but if he does...I should rest assured that in the end it would benefit me, right? just as long as he doesn't haul any STDs home I should be fine. :D
ahh logic applied to sex...sometimes it does work out.
I forgot to mention something, I know halfway through the morning this always happens to me. Did I tell you that I watched the last film I did? The one with all the new pics of the smaller me? It wasn't too bad, but it could have used a lot of improvement. There are several scenes with my scar in them...which sucks because I have a large easily identifiable scar on the arm where I am planning to have a tattoo. And, no, I am not ashamed of what I have done but I would like to be able to hide behind the premise of a doppleganger if I ever have the chance.
The film work itself was pretty good. I couldn't focus that day on work so I was very bad and I know that I could do better. What kind of ruined it for me was the editing. I know, I shouldn't be picky, it was an easy way to make some cash but there was next to no editing in the thing and i think with a little work it would have been much better.
1) cut out the stuff with the tattoos and the scar, well the easily cutable stuff anyways.
2) edit for composition, get more inner shots, splice the tape together to show things off more like regular porn.
3) put in a soundtrack. I have problems with people who don't lay track with their tapes and I end up having to hear whatever I am muttering about at the time. I do moan a lot when things get good but when I am relaxed I yak a lot too and I doubt that that would be a turn on. Next time, I will put the music on to work to.
4) basic editing, cut out the silly shit that it takes to get into the position. yea, it looks cool and does plug into Cornell's theory about women directors defusing the naturalness of porn but it also looks really silly in a real movie. in the one I did, we had a section where I was getting into a position where I am lying vertically with my cunt 90 degrees in the air...a hard move by the way, and he failed to cut what led up to it which was quite silly.
all in all, it was okay but i think with some more advanced editing it would have been much better. I also have some quailty issues with the tape...I am unsure if it was supposed to be in black and white or if the VHS was messed up. when we tried to play it at spk's the tape kept messing up a lot, not a good way to keep customers!
Your only real purpose is to amuse the perverts.
wish me luck in keeping up this awesome swinging energy. I like the lifestyle better when I am surrounded by this nice positive light :)