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polyamory meeting oh it's morning and the best moniker for my feelings is pleasently tired. not tired in the formal sense because i am rested but tired in the sense that I would rather be at home resting in bed than here smelling my skin's odor. I bathed, but I still have a film of nightsweat and pussy juice that I can smell and I pray the rest of the world can't. at least it is payday. Spk and I went to the polyamory meeting last night and it was awesome. I am very glad that I went. I kind of messed things up though, he is right we should have mingled with more people. D and her partner took us under their wing so I kind of stuck by them and had a lot of fun but didn't really break out and meet a lot of new people which was a failure on my part. I was where I was...and i wish spk would have spoken up about it because I would gladly have gone and talked to some others. the meeting was at WRAP which has a really nice meeting room and everyone got to talk. I was really chattery the whole night so I am hoping that I didn't get on anyone's annoying list. Lack of contact with people like myself and then finding a whole group of them kind of made me burst out in song. :) Everyone was really cool and I didn't feel so alone after everything, even though I kept getting those happy emotional tears half the time, because I dunno, I felt like I was at home for once. Very nice and peaceful. The after meet was nice too, although I am still worried that I was too chattery...like I said, lack of good human contact. I got the way I usually get when I am rather happy, :D very excited, loud, and slightly dominating. The latter is the trait I am worried most about but D seemed to accept it in stride and things could be worse, her partner is a little nutty like that too so it isn't half bad. So all in all, it was a good idea to go and I am glad I did it. The place is a little cliquey but it seems like it can be broken into and everyone seems really warm and friendly to each other. It's kind of like an odd family but I really appreciate it and now I am superhappy that I met D so she could introduce me to this....gosh, she's awesome! *sigh* sucks that I have to wait until Thursday to see her again. tonight is the hotel party and, actually, I am not really worried about it. I talked about it with spk and now I have some confidance behind me with how things are going so I think that I will probably have a really good time. :) I think that I really needed the confidance more than anything and now that I have it I feel more secure about things. I feel great though and that is what I wanted to bring to swinging because it lets me be free and relaxed. I don't have to worry about things and I can go at my own pace with it and it just feels better. So, perhaps I just needed a break or to find some support, I think that the latter was key for me. It's not that my other friends aren't good or anything but they don't understand and I have finally found some people that can teach me to deal with various things that these different relationships require. ok, enough being superhappy and postulating. I am at work. Enjoy the test! still unsure how I missed Slut Bear on the last one. The world agrees, I am still a stoner.
Youre the baby of the drugs, and thats okay, because Im sure, I could do you all day.
daphne Need to add the postscript that my little boss just did the best thing...I discovered my fav ska CD ever magically yesterday and he just burned it for me! It's a one of a kind, especially seeing as the company is now defunct. So I have some british ska in my collection. he claims it is up tempto reggae, which makes sense cause I love reggae too...I know, it's weird but hey, it's me. |