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new pics oh it's morning and I am trapped at work again...what mistakes against the realm of AV shall I make today? God only knows but from what I am hearing about multiple interviews and rejections just to become waitstaff I know that I am lucky to even be holding a job. It sucks though because although I have a job it is starting to get less and less pleasent each day I work. That and more tiring...I get a lot of sleep and I feel well-rested when I wake up but once I am back in this chair I am drained. I have wanted to try and go back to the health walker but everyday I go home and my legs ache and my arms ache and I just shower, watch TV and attempt some reading. I didn't last night because I finished what I was reading but I should compile a list for research after my meeting on Friday. I have some of the html figured out, if you couldn't see the new layout. I am a little proud of it and it gave me something to do last night. I also uploaded the new photos after taking down pretty much everything else so if you want to see them (is an edited version I don't have enough space to keep all of them up) they are still at http://photos.yahoo.com/missunxeroxable I mourned about taking down the old stuff but like the last time I have lost weight and although this batch is amateurish and sucks, it will show people what I am into and somewhat what I look like now and how big I am. :D even had a chatter comment on my loss while I was posting them! My tummy still looks flabby and I am not too happy with the other stuff but everytime I try and puff my belly out or analyze myself in front of the mirror I find that I am doing better than before and that is good. I am just a little nervous about seeing the video, I always hate hearing my voice on tape -you would think that I would be used to it at this type of job!- and I am waaay too critical of my performances but will live through it, there are always parts I like. have to go temporarily...might work on this later, all the nuts are heading into my department to return shit...why can't I just do one thing in the morning alone! ok back, now we have a long line of equipment missing things that we will probably never see returned and it will have to stay on the lower half of the ugly black shelves forever and the big boss will yell at me for not getting all of it at the same time...yeah like I am to blame for people being idiots... anyway, I was going to ramble about...something...I think it was missing home. the apple blossoms remind me of home but every time I go back the place is TINY! and overgrown with weeds and wildlife and not very clean. my father is handicapped so I understand but I miss it when I was young. I have so many memories of playing in the backyard and climbing trees and things and how BIG the place seemed to me. Hell, my room in there is about the size of my apt kitchen! I cannot believe that I spent most of my day without a computer in my room at home either reading or watching TV, and this is before cable, just TV. I learned a lot, got a lot of reading done, and I learned how to work outside -even though I never wanted to and to this day I relish working inside instead of out-. It wasn't the best life and I know that I am romanticizing the good parts but I had to call my father yesterday because the phone messed up my number for him so he couldn't contact me. He got worried because it kept telling him that my phone was now disconnected and he doesn't want to see me dead with the girl dead in Canton and things, so that makes sense but if it wasn't for grandfather emailing me to call him I am sure it would have been months before we reached each other. -shrug- hate to say it, but calling my parents is usually the last thing on my list to do. I should phone mom but I have no news and she almost never calls me so that relationship works well...ok it's disfunctional but have you met my father? THAT'S a pretty disfunctional relationship too, it's only now that I am starting to understand his ways...they aren't the best and I get frustrated but he lets me cut out when I want to so that's nice. I don't know if I should have rambled on like that...oh well. Fifteen minutes to do until the big boss gets here...oh yeah I wanted to plug Between the Lines for this week because one of the columns discusses the japanese art of dick origami. Ok, they have a nicer name for it than I do but it is becoming a sport, or something, and the guy is an enthusiast and talks about its history so you should check it out. It's pretty weird but good. I think I might be getting the hang of the html thing, if I have more time I will work on it at work or at home so if the site changes drastically it's just me messing with stuff. daphne |