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Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test yup, it seems that I am most likely to sleep with you, use you for money, betray you, and then hurt you really bad....sounds almost like my M.O. for most men...just kidding, all. it was freezing rain yesterday and today it is hot. walked in wearing my hoodie and the heat just floored me. I am also looking at all the lovely stuff I need to put on inventory today which sucks...I will have no fun and no time to slack. oh, the horrors of my day job! I didn't do anything for cinco de mayo, no drinking, no fun. I got a little buzzed, took a shower, and ate most of the ice cream while watching the usual lineup of comedies. I also watched Fear Factor because they were eating gross food and doing cool stunts involving bobbing for dead mice. If it wasn't for all those stunts requiring actual physical strength I would go on the show. I think that I could bob for dead mice and eat nasty stuff just fine. I just don't know about being dropped from a plane, or hanging from one, or whatever those odd stunts are about. oh yeah, I also read lovely accounts from women who porn has adversely affected their life. It's tough reading, not merely Mackinnon's theories in this work...I am reading court hearings for a porn ordinance. It bothers me to read those things though because they kind of strike a chord with me and make me wonder did I join this willingly? How willing was I? I don't think that I was pressured but maybe I did do it out of a need to earn money or to prove myself as wild or out there or mature. I don't know...it just makes me reconsider my motives. Spk brought up the fact that now that I am researching sex workers I have been reluctant to perform sex work myself, which is true. It's hard to discuss these theories with fellow students even because I can't say that I am a sex worker because that discredits me as a scholar so I have to sit and listen to people saying that I can't openly choose to be one. It's very rough and I think that I stopped working because the more I read about it, the more wary about things I get. I want to get out and be a wild girl again but some nagging feeling stops me. More and more I am learning to listen to that nagging feeling because it is rarely wrong...and I guess I would rather err on the side of safety, oddly enough. arrrghhh bosses keep talking right next to me at the desk! if these paragraphs sound a little rough that is why...personally I don't really care about digital camera resolution at this hour of the day, I just want to be left alone people! cum'on little boss, go back and hide at your desk behind me and quit yakking about stupid shit, blah blah blah. ever notice how boring adults are? honestly, I am praying that i never get that dull when I get old. I know that I will have to work at some boring job doing some boring thing but I do not want to end up like the adults I see around me, dull as dirt. I guess you could argue that my nerdiness is dull as dirt, but I hope not. I really do because all the grown up people I know go on and on about the dumbest stuff that I just can't stand it at times. ok, they shut up...on to more rational thinking. oh yeah, I was going to tell you that I got the pics from the toledo porn session. They aren't up yet, but I will put them up later today and give you guys the link tomorrow. I also have a copy of the movie but I can't watch that until the weekend. God, I hope that I don't look fat in the pics, I hate looking fat! I almost wish that i looked like Traci Lourds or something, get myself to a point where I will never have to worry about looks. Of course if I got that body I would then start worrying about aging, which I am sure in ten years or so will be another issue for me. God, an old washed out porn star at 30, I hope that my degree will yield a better future than that. I am considering going Gold with this membership. Honestly, I just want a banner on the site to attract more visitors. I want more attention! I am only linked to one person's journal here and I peek in on at least ten a day. I want more love! Work is going to be hell...another nine hours folks, maybe i can just go to sleep in my hoodie and forget everything. mostly work, I forgot how hard it is to amuse myself for nine hours at a dull job. daphne |