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Shitty Week I have been having a shitty shitty week. The rain ruined our plans to move my shit out last night. So, most of it is boxed up and sorted, but none of it is out of there. Today is my inspection, unless I actually get ahold of my super, who seems to be ignoring my calls. I only need another day, though I'll admit I'm cursing myself for slacking off over the weekend, but he seems unreachable. Oh well. Worst case scenario, I can meet him tonight at six and just tell him nothing is damaged. You can tell all the damage was done before I moved in. I still need to clean and move shit out, but he can take a look around and show me how to spackle everything except where the big painting is hanging. That still needs to come down. I don't know how we'll fit this all in Dan's trailor. I'm worried on that count too. Hopefully, we can make some room so we can both squeeze in there. I pray we do at this rate of crap pileup. I've also gained back the 15lbs I left behind in college. I don't know what made me step on that scale last night, but I got the real number once again. I'm back to my freshman weight. It sucks. I don't want to be this heavy, or even think I'm THIS heavy! I would just be happy continuing on with the same weight I've had for three years, but no. It had to change on me again. I like having the bigger breasts, but I'm scared the stomach will drive people off. Dan still thinks I'm sexy, which makes me glad, but maybe this is why the swinging thing is going so poorly. Of course, that sort of thinking always leads to a great binge & cycle where I can never win. Arrrghhh why does physical attractiveness have to matter so much in the world? Because it does. I'm also hella klutzy these days. I smashed a mug at work this morning on the floor. My ribs have been pulled/bruised for the last few days due to tubing. I don't know what is up with my knee being sore every morning, and my back is doing its usual protests. I guess I'll have to capitulate and deal with the reality that I'm getting old. I was right this morning, being an adult bites. Only good news lately is that I'm going riding with Larry in a week. I messed up one of his big accounts yesterday, so I don't know how happy he is with that request. I decided not to bother him with timing questions until he was a little less stressed, probably monday or tuesday morning. Lord only knows I don't need to piss him off even more. I don't know if I'll like the job yet, but at least something seems to be moving forward these days. Daphne |