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my name is daphne and I am mildly addicted to nicotine I relapsed and had a cigarette today. Thought y'all should know that. Work got so horrible that I went and cried in the loo and then sought out one of my coworkers who had a smoke and a match and was kind enough to share that with me. Lit up the Marlobro and felt goooood...real gooood. got through it with some venting and wanted another. really wanted another. felt the nicotine receptors in my brain firing off into relaxed bliss and wanted more. Wasn't going to impose though so went back to work. Got a headache later and the craving wore off but now I get the addiction more than ever. The cause for the extremely rare smoke? They took away my Zappa in a mean way and Blondie has really been treating me like shit in the office. I get all the flak from her stress caused by my coworkers. She can't handle stress well and sadly I really hope that she dies one of these days. Falls flat on her face when one of her kidneys explodes. that's how much I hate her. Told my boss. After she left, he seemed receptive to mentioning it to her when she does it again. He was nice about it. I told him the work doesn't bother me, it's her attidute and how she takes shit out on me when I am really behaving. Yea, I had headphones on today but they were low and the reason I couldn't hear the phone ring was because of the office noise, not Zappa. and I don't care about those rules. I just want her to stop being such a fucking control freak. He took her down a few pegs earlier in the week and I told him that I valued that. He really needs to do it more often and her attitude is a universal complaint, I am just the only one who sits in the office with her so I get the brunt of it. gtg though...got TONS of work for the weekend now that I can't knock shit out while on the job. damn bitch Daphne |