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Nude Figure Modeling All right, as promised, I did nothing last night and passed out with spk at like 10pm. had some fucked up and wonderful nightmares, and only one dream with spk fucking me in a 3some, and finally I am up. Got tons of shit to write and do today which I hope to get done. yesterday was all right though. The doctor claims that the boil already popped when I did it and that it needs a few months to heal completely...great. So they didn't do anything except tell me about heat compresses and be patient. the Bentley sucked. I read through a little over a year in two hours in the journals I was working with and I took notes but I have no idea where this is going. I have five weeks to figure that out and I am lost as all hell. So much for a good project there. and I modeled for 3 hours and that was rather fun. They let me choose my own poses which was nice and they brought me out a heater when I got cold. The room was really supportive and I had fun looking at various sketches which most people were okay with me seeing. Some I really liked, most were rather truthful and some were rather not. Yeah, I know I got back fat but when this like old ancient guy keeping drawing me like a huge fat lump I start getting pissed. So I decided not to face his way (he was in the back of the room) most of the time. The actual posing was all right. I thought that I would be stiff as hell from last night but that wasn't the case. I did a lot of stretching and limbered up and I got really into it. Good energy and all that. Fun to watch people stare at you while you look at the trees and watch them sketch. Fun to try out new poses and learn how to find the pose again and pretty fun to find how your joints can hurt when holding something for 20 mins. I did learn how to do that though so that the 20 minute ones were starting to fly by pretty quickly so I don't feel intimidated anymore by working for classes. I can do this. It isn't that hard, except when people draw your back fat and your tummy in horrible ways that you did not want to see. that got me thinking about AFF again. Maybe I am not all that hot as I think I am. Probably the case. Maybe that's why all we can get are guys. Maybe spk really does derserve a real hot college kid and not some fat thing like me. He reassured me that i am normal but everything I see on AFF looks very good looking so i tend to wonder if I am bringing down our ratings. whatever though. not like I am actively looking anyway. Oh I keep forgetting to mention her, but I found a cool girl in Cadiallic that I really like, E. She's a pretty awesome butch and I have been phoning her a lot. (hope the long distance bills don't occur) She has been missing me but the past few days have been rather rough on me. I plan to call her tonight though and reassure her that I still like her and all that. I just get busy and can't always call everyone. Speaking of calls though, where the hell is my weed at co-dependant? Daphne oh lots of people like to get here through dirty daphne searches, keep it up yahoo. |