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stood up :( bah...I feel like I am the only responsible stoner out there anymore. I am not that miffed anymore and I wouldn't care so much except I have no food in the house and I spent an hour shaving myself everywhere to prefection and thinking up something cool to do last night only to get stood up. I know spk has to work on his car today and I can take some notes or whatever but I am still a little peeved. I hate being the dependable one in the world when I get screwed over by depending on others. I shaved, I waited, he watched racing, he never called, I finally did after 4 hours of not eating, he told me to eat something and all I had to eat was a bit of peas and rice, no butter, no cheese, and then he never called me again. I have no milk either and I am done paying the bills. I don't want to buy groceries either because we planned to go out of town for a few days and having a fridge full of food makes no sense then. So being stood up by a stoner sucks. Part of me knows not to depend on people or trust people but the optimism is still here. bah! to the optimism though. I just feel hurt that he would rather get high then see me and that I wasted my time shaving. I know that isn't consciously the case but I wonder sometimes. then again, I guess I assume too much by thinking that people should have their act together when they are adults. not everyone does. I do though so I expect others to and it's a pet peeve of mine when they don't. but either way I dislike being stood up especially by someone who should want to see me. so bumming. off to play pop and drop and then take more notes. crunching my dry capn crunch to that tune. update: Ok he was tired, I can accept that. I also want to say that we are going to the cini mini in Grand Rapids tonight so if anyone is hung and out that way please cum by there for some fun! we should be in chicago sunday and monday too if anyone out that way wants to party... daphne |