The Innocent Cherry Competition
ok I am not awake still so please ignore any weirdness to being up most of the night. ok?
tiiiirreeed. I can hardly wait for the next two weeks to pass by. after this week it's one week with the little boss and then one week managing my myself and then vacation...
I am almost at the point of accepting what I am going to do. I am going to not work. I am going to make the choice to not work. It's freaky because I have never not worked since I was 15. not working just sounds wrong. I told my Dad that I was taking the time off and he wasn't happy about it. I also kind of proposed that maybe I shouldn't work during the school year either with the thesis and he was pretty upset. I am such a disappointment to him. I am half tempted to stop working for a long time and just go into debt for awhile because I am sick of holding down a job but I know that I need the money and this time it is only temporary.
but the dream of not working makes me wonder if I am going to turn it all into vacation or not. Troma and Innocent and I were up late last night and I was dreaming about how great it will be in a few weeks when I can party late on weeknights because I won't have to get up and be all sleepy like I am right now. and how envious I am that they can sleep in so late but I have to be up early. gaaa...annoying. it was rough getting out of the nice soft bed today and if it wasn't for the fact I had a high sleep I probably wouldn't have done it at all.
oh yeah, hey spk sorry I didn't call! I almost lost my phone last night too, it's a bad week for that, but luckily I found it in Troma's car so that was cool.
I had a nice night too. we made curry at Troma's as an attempt for us all to cook together. It turned out pretty good but I already had a wine cooler so I didn't feel like eating. The steak part of it was lovely though and I was tempted to go back to the pot and eat all of that and say fuck the veggies but I behaved.
we had some nice talks at Troma's about stuff. can't remember too much. just piercings, tattoos, sex (as always) and lots of other things. I decided to go at 12:30 so that I could possibly sleep and Innocent wanted to see the print I had bought a frame for so we headed back to my house.
In all honestly guys, you found a great frame for it. the saline Meijer's had a decent frame selection even though I need spk to trim the matting down to 18" because I found a brushed aluminum frame for it that works better than the black would. the queens are right, the piece is too light to be surrounded by black.
so he saw the woman meditating in the pussy rock print and admitted that it was cool. then we all smoked together, Innocent claims that he found sixty bucks on the side of the road or something somewhere and so he decided to spend it on drugs because it wasn't his money anyway. so that was cool. he had good stuff too and I ended up kicking them out at 230 after some long talks on sex and other stuff. I dunno stoner talks, ya know? about the only thing I remember was Troma and I yammering about a threeway while Innocent was on the phone. I told Troma that I had to be a good girl and that I couldn't, for many reasons like coworkerhood and things like that, and he tried arguing a sort of grandfather clause thingy...like well you knew me before you met spk and I won't be working there after the summer so that won't be an excuse. I was still refusing though. and yeah, I know I can't really gun for Innocent because we are coworkers but the fantasy is fun. Troma and I are having a sort of friendly competition for Innocent's cherries that I haven't had in a long time with someone. It's kind of weird and kind of fun and kind of funny because Troma and I never really had tons of sexual tension between us. Like we talk dirty and do some odd insinuating stuff but it was always in a kind of jest. I wanted him when I first met him a long time ago but I kind of got over it because he never really picked up on it and since then we have just had a friendly tension free banter, at least on my side anyway, and now it's like oh no/oh boy hmmmm so what's going to happen with the three of us? should we jump Innocent? should we wait? :P he's never done anything with guys so he's purer for you, but then again he's not into casual sex because that would mess things up between two people, but then again again the makeout buddy stories...so Troma and I sit and debate things and I tease him because I think he will be luckier in these matters. I mean, from what I hear some other gal is gunning hard for Innocent too and she's probably cuter and has better connections so I am doubting any sort of luck on my end. mostly I am just trying to confuse things and kind of cheer for Troma in an odd way.
but anyway, I kicked them out and eventually went to sleep. The Innocent thing seems to be just a fantasy and should stay that way. If only I could meet a hot virgin like him though that wasn't working with me and do that guy. that would be awesome...hmmmm dreams.
I was typing this quickly yesterday and I forgot to add in descriptions of Hands and Bishy. Bishy is like my size only shorter and has really firm everything. I felt kind of sloppy next to her because she is really firm and my breasts and body fat are just kind of hanging out there. I know, i need to tone up, but it was cool. I told her the truth, she has my sister's eyes and mouth but not her nose, and her short haircut is really cute. she looks much better in person then in her photos and I hope things work out between all of us. If they're okay with me being hyper I think I might take a stacker on Friday night and not sleep for awhile. Suck to crash out Sat but I am young so I think that I can handle it.
as for Hands, I didn't notice until I got a safe distance away but he reminds a lot of my big boss. It's strange. They have the same first name and he looks kind of like a beefier version of my boss, even with the same glasses. he is decently built and pretty cute for an older guy but the general face and body structure got to me once spk and I headed home. it was very strange but okay in the long run.
blah almost awake. must not yell at boss today. must be a good girl.
oh yeah, still haven't done notes. need to meet with Jacobsen today and I hope that I will be awake enough to make sense out of the meeting. I want it to go well and not to alienate her but it sucks that I am so dog tired. I would take a nap early but for less than an hour it isn't worth it. will see how I feel later on.
D also wrote me again and wants to meet Thursday if she is still dry. I decided I would because I still like her and even if it is only smoking and sex that she wants it doesn't really bother me at this point. I don't know what we are to each other and I wouldn't tolerate the fuck buddy thing with a guy but with women it's fine. I tend to be pretty passive agressive about relationships and that should change but there's nothing really wrong with her. I just decided that I will be open to whatever she wants to bring me and that I am not going to chase her all over heck and back to get it. she wants me good, she wants her other partners or her space that's fine too. I am just going to be independant and work on my shit and whatever floats my way can.
blah still sleepy. must try to take notes today and over the weekend, I mean try and actually do it, maybe i will take tomorrow off from things and work on it. I don't know. I hate the thesis right now and I think that I will only do two more books before the end of the summer and then I will just enjoy vacation. I know that I said that I would work harder than that but I haven't really had much of a vacation so I kind of think that I should. and with all the work I have done I don't think my advisor would fault me for having some fun while I still can.
ahh school is going to be hell.
looking forward to Friday at least. it will be the last week for the big boss to be here and me to be here, after that blissful peace. need only last til the end of the week and I know we are both thinking that.