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It's Almost Like Being Depressed Well, I am fine and dandy now that I have slept 12+ hours. I took most of yesterday off of doing stuff at home and slept for a long time. It was really nice. I had some awesome dreams, the best one that I remember being about the bridges over the huge waterfall. I dove down into the gigantic waterfall at some earlier point off of the bridge but this time I wanted to cross it. Of course all the bridges have these jumping gaps for some reason and slim little walkways but I did it just the same. I jumped the gaps, was scared to miss, but made it over. then some people found me, park rangers or something I think, and they wanted me to come back over. like climbing down a tall tree I was stuck. they eventually led me to another bridge that didn't have the wire takeoff -at the end of the first bridge was this wire that I had to jump over but I knew that I couldn't make it coming back- but instead had a section where I had to dive into the water and walk across before climbing up onto the bridge proper. I was freaking out. jumping underneath the water straight down and walking for thirty seconds to reach an underwater ladder sounded a bit too much for me but with a little coaching I did it and it wasn't too hard. I made the rest of the task pretty well and I got back over to the right side. I have no idea behind the symbolism of this except maybe I have fears that I can never return from the path I have taken and someone wants to let me know that with some time and courage I can always come back OR I need to go on Fear Factor sometime soon. It was a fun dream though. I like sleeping a long time and I didn't want to get up this morning because I love hitting the state where I can keep dreaming and dreaming and dreaming for hours on end. I had tons of other minor dreams, the last one of which involved hunting for a belt buckle for some reason, and they were all really fun but I can't remember them that well. lucid dreams are nice though and I think I will keep indulging saterday morning. yesterday was a blah day at work though. I didn't have enough sleep so I was a bit cranky. I found some hookups though and that was good but spk had already fixed his problem. blah. I had to call him this morning to double check but everything is already set up. so I tried but wasn't needed. he thanked me though yesterday and I thought that he was going to call and wake me up later in the evening but he never did. oh well, he probably went to bed asap himself. as for the Zelnorm...it's not fun. I have no idea what I am going to do this weekend and i think part of my problem might have been a lack of sleep, we'll see today, but the drug made me light headed and gave me butt bombs. part of me wondered if they gave me laxatives instead of the actual drug because I coutldn't keep anything in me for more than 3 hours. kind of annoying. I learned though not to ever take laxatives for dieting purposes. I don't know how girls can go that route, peeing out of my butt is just no fun at all. so I had to stay near plumbing when I was on the stuff and blahness. I got a lot of work done that day too but at times the drug was making my insides unhappy. I think that I will get used to it though and I should be fine after a few days on it. besides, it only lasts until wednesday. the other thing I want to bitch about before I go is that they paid me half of the study already and sadly taxes ate 75% of it! This blows! they have to put it through our UM checks but I only got a teeny bit of what I earned. gaahh!! I am so pissed off at the government. there should be a way to protect low income people who actually work harder to make more from not getting their money stolen. yeah I know it will come back in the return but that is like waiting for after death to reap my reward. I earned it, I want it now! nothing more to note. going to do the last of the inventory today and then I will be stuck doing whatever for another 2-3 weeks until the big boss goes on vacation. yeeehaw. Daphne |