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President's House morning again all... I am stuck in the office today working through the oddity of the office inventory, which I later realized I should have started slightly different but oh well, but the good news is that my big boss is gone for most of the morning at the dentist...yay! this means that both the little boss and I can play video games until he is almost due in. I was thinking that the day was going to be another horrible long pointless day but if I can shave off a few hours I will feel a bit better. I have been worrying about that lately. I am so tired with work and so tired with getting up and doing stuff that I want to just lie in bed all day and sleep. my life gets really dull at times because I don't go out on my own because I don't have tons of money. I got really lonely last night and called the three friends I know are around but got everyone's answering machines. I did do some work on my notes and decloaked online and chatted for a bit with some people but my heart wasn't in it. It's strange how I can get so lonely so fast though, especially because I spent about ten to eighteen years living in a house with just me and my father, me spending most of my time alone in a tiny room reading, but now I crave human contact. hell...half the reason I like whoring is because I get to meet people! and the IM isn't cutting it anymore for me. I need to at least hear voices, a phone call, or better a good in person meeting. I think that is why I am so tired this week, I am missing people a bit too much so I sleep as an attempt to connect with something on another plane...and no, I don't know what brings this tension on...maybe it's just summer blues. I didn't do much of note yesterday. I saw the inside of the President's house and that was pretty cool. The last time I heard it was open was for the Rose Bowl victory in 1997 but Coleman decided to host an open house for the affirmative action decision. It was really nice and we were able to wander the main floor. Troma and I snuck into the basement but we couldn't head upstairs...he teased me about wanting to see her panties...and I got to roam around the lawn I have wanted access to for so long. It cut down my time at home but I think that it was worth it and it's a lovely memory. oh, I do need to make one announcement though...a good friend of mine is moving to GA in the next few days. I know he keeps up with the blog so I want to wish him a good trip and I am sorry to see him leave out of state. he asked if he could give me a last lick last night or tonight but I am bit too sore still for that hun, sorry. If you are interested in getting drinks though I am up for that...but with all the packing I can understand you declining. please keep up with me though because I will miss hearing from you every now and again. I guess I am also a bit bummed that I will miss out on all the swinging fun during the 4th. spk and I were invited to hit the Sun Aura park but I will be doing my girl thing then so I don't really want to go. The couple that invited us is nice and I know the place isn't limited to them but I hate meeting people only to say "yeah, I want to do ya, but I am on the rag so you probably aren't interested." It's kind of a downer. I don't find the forces of life embarassing or anything, merely annoying. that and I think I will be starting the drug for that test I am in and who knows how that is going to fuck me up! I also have some plans in my head. Carli's girlfriend is going to be in town then and I really want to meet her. I haven't been able to catch her online though and tell her, so here's the info hun WE WANT TO MEET YOU! I am hoping for all four of us to go out and get to know each other with no pressure attached to it. she seems very sweet and we might have a lot in common so it would be nice if we could meet. I should throw her an email sometime but I keep forgetting to email everyone so if you are interested hun, email me in case I forget...I really am very interested. ok, now that I am done pleading for pretty girls to see me soon...I dunno what else to add. I am getting the blues a bit but it's touch and go and I have no idea how you real adults do these 40 hour a week jobs because I am going insane! honestly, I like sex work better. better hours, better pay, more independence, more risk but aahhhh it's the job, more time to myself, be my own boss...this vanilla job shit sucks. I want another one but getting a job is difficult right now so I am trying to suck it up and stay with it. wish me luck on that. Daphne |