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I am into too many things Ok, it's oneish and I am doing this again...sneaking away to work on other stuff and somehow I always feel somewhat guilty about it. So I don't do as much as I could, even though I should because I have that meeting, again, with Jacobsen so that I can talk to her and learn about her films. That means I have to start a write up tonight which gives me even much less time to work on the notes so I need to do them sometime. I hate stealing from my big boss though, I didn't mind so much in the other department because everyone was a slacker and they were assholes but my boss seems to like and trust me so I don't want to hurt him. I have been caught working on the computer once by the superboss during the school year so I was superparanoid after that and they strongly encouraged me to use the one in the office that everybody can see and so that they know that I am just doing email and not slacking off. Funny thing is though that my coworker has been playing games on it and they don't annoy him but when I do it they suddenly search for busy work. Hence, my learning that I need to get out of the office to do my own thing at my own pace, which is fast so i will work on this to make up for the time. anyway...gosh I am tired! I did a lot yesterday. I planned to read about three articles and I think that I did four or five. The last two were rather brief but interesting so they still count. I still have more than a hundred pages to go right now so I want to start knocking that out. i also have to do a writeup on this one as well but i am still hoping that my advisor likes what she sees when she gets it. I have yet to turn in anything written and I don't want to seem entirely like a flake. i will probably send her the interview stuff first and see what she thinks about that. as for the day, I had a pretty good one. This keyboard is locking up like mad and making my angry but other than that the quietness of the basement is nice. I got to check rooms with two pretty cool guys, both were medium hot and we flirted a little and talked about life. It was nice to actually have someone fun to chat with show me around, usually i end up with stuffy older secretaries but guys my age that aren't horrible was a nice change. I also got a kick out of their simple girlfriend issues. I declined to speak much on my life warning them that it is pretty strange and with the glasses and all I think that they must have assumed feminist nerdy girl and didn't push it. *sigh* In worse news, I have a yeast flareup and the huge hornies to lick some pussy. I am trying not to think about either one of those problems because they both hurt. Girls especially. Where do you go to meet good looking open women? other than swinger's clubs and the local polyamory group, all of which I have hit, where does one find a nice woman to let you eat her pussy? no need to reciprocate, I just want to eat and eat and eat and watch the cum spurt out. If she's into it more then that's great, but right now I am having pussy withdrawl and it's getting to me. I am almost ready to call D but I know that will be awkward so I am still working on avoiding that. it isn't entirely my fault though, she hasn't emailed or phoned me either so maybe the third date sealed it for both of us, we just aren't right for each other. It also sucks though that I have no good way of letting her down about it either. i hate having to tell people that they cannot express their beliefs around me but it bugs me so I am going to have to come clean about that. I am also not going to lead her on about spk anymore...I will just tell her to ask him directly because I do not want to keep being the go between speaking of a "possibly" when i know that he isn't interested. I am getting pretty tired of having to do that sort of thing with people in general so if I start busting a lot of ya off of my messenger and hitting ignore a lot, it's personal. I have learned that chatting with men about how to get their dicks up on my free time isn't worth it. And most of the time, unless you are planning to pay me, there isn't a possiblity so I am not going to put it into you head that there is. Either fork up the money or give me a girl cause I don't care about just your little weenie. And no, I don't want to see it on webcam. not that I have been on IM much lately. I tend to leave it open while I am online but nobody says hello and I am generally too busy to care about pursuing other people. Sadly, I can't hang out and try and chat up a bunch of couples with my workload right now. Most of the time when I do it too I generally get the man anyway and I don't trust that. Men have recently been lying assholes to me so I never fully trust that their wives really are as bi as they say they are. Most of the time i tend to suspect men of saying that just to get to me, and these are the nice assholes not the ones who suggest that I should go out that night without spk and have a hot threesome with them, so I don't value a conversation with just the hubby...that and those conversations are generally the worst because they only involve what I am wearing and how do I like to get off. oh yeah, why does everyone ask that anyway? I rarely "get off" with anyone other than myself, which I hate to admit but recently I have begun to treasure. It's kind of like saying "don't worry about it, I won't. do whatever makes you cum and I'll just deal because you don't have the shit to make me do it anyway. your wife might and I can but HAHA you and your prick and licks will do jack shit." Ok, I am in another smug mood... :) but yea, I end up having to tell guys that all the time, that and I like everything, which tends to befuddle them. I am honest though, I am into almost every perversion and if I started to list all of the stuff I do from time to time most men get scared...I mean how many men out there in couples really want to hear that occasionally I like watersports. It's not something I do with everyone but every once in a while with spk it's fun. You mention that in response to a "what are you into?" line and men just kind of flee. of course, I always mix that into a huge line if they pressure me to respond like "guys, girls, toys, anal, watersports, BD both sides, whipping, choking, outdoor sex, spankings, massages, CBT, TS, CDs, TVs, exhibitionism, and a general good hard fuck." kind of daunting isn't it? usually I have taken to throwing down something closer to "ok, what I won't do is: animals, minors, shit, adult babies, puke fetishes, anything with rotten fish or corpses, voyeurism and fat people." This leaves the rest of the world wide open and frightens the weak enough to wonder how I came up with some of that. anyway, it's been about half an hour and I don't know what started that rant, but do me a favor guys...be up front and tell me what you are into. more than likely I have interest in it unless you are a fat old guy who wears diapers and duct tapes fish to his chest before engaging in a three way with a corpse and a bulldog that has both the runs and the upchucks every couple of minutues. In that case, you the corpse and the dog can just have a good time on your own, I don't want to clean up the mess. Daphne
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