a busy day =)
I am evil. I am buzzed at work. I should not have touched the bowl but something inside me made me and now I am buzzed up and sitting in an office that I cannot escape with two bosses that can look right at me. God, please, don't send a giggling fit today.
I forgot to call my Dad yesterday, it was his birthday. I should have done it. I thought about doing it a few days ago and now I missed it. I will give him a belated one, which for us is just as good, I rarely remember important dates.
yesterday was a busy day. It all kind of fell on me at once but I am glad it did. Well, except for the new zit or whatever it is that landed further down now that the first one cleared up. trust me, it's not what you are thinking, nothing comes in a form that looks like this...a zit. it happens.
I sent through some email tag and ended up with a client for escort work after work. He was a return client, which surprised me because lately I have been getting repeats from last summer and also some new people chatting me up. Funny thing is, I haven't been posting anything, just sitting back and watching the fish come to me.
anyway, you heard me east indian rants, well this guy might be the only east indian guy I can deal with. he is nice to work with...his dick just sucks. ad well, nice always helps.
he did the first round really well and fast. I had the same experience I did the last time, unsure of what the hell was going on because his dick was so small.
I don't want to dog guys here but this dude was about three inches. The first time I worked with him I wasn't even sure we had had sex. He came and he said it was good...but i didn't feel anything. this time I just moaned along and helped him come. a cum coach maybe?
We talked in the refill period and that wasn't so bad. He wanted me to suck him up and I had some problems. This is where I feel a bit bad because I like doing well with my job but I couldn't get into it for awhile. He has a long, about an inch, of foreskin around his shrivled up dick that just kept setting my throat off. call me Western, but I am too used to the cut cock. The smell also had something to do with it. It wasn't horrible but it was different enough to bother me. I worked at it though and I got it to semi hard but he said the fault was mostly with him thinking about work and all. He had to get going so I was let off the hook a bit and he told me that it was good, I had tried hard, but sometimes nervousness and worrying break it down. I got it and he left.
:D now leading up to the good sex.
I was unsure about using the money to buy Cedar Point tickets myself or to give it to spk ordering him to spend part of it on that trip. I decided to surprise him so I told him to be prepared in my sexy voice and I asked to blindfold him...I am sure he thought I got him a nice girl :) and I made him swear to go to Cedar Point the weekend after this and stuck the bills all inside his clothes and whipped off the blindfold. no, naked girl, yet, just money.
he was happy and after some eats we had a good long fuck. I got pretty sore, which sucks, but he had to have been superstoked because his dick was huge! *ouch* he let me bounce on it though and do a lap dance on top of it so that was fun. He gave it a good ending too :) He wanted me to leave my glasses on so he could fuck the hot little nerd girl and then he came all over my glasses. I was blinded, literally, so I had to wait for a towel and be led into the bathroom afterwards but it was fun. maybe I will get the camera out for this weekend. big tip folks, cum in the eyes stings and definately makes them redder.
so after that we fell asleep and here is the scary part of the story.
I had a nightmare, again. no good dreams for me lately. spk and I were out meeting a couple and they were very young and the woman looked sort of like Amber Voight from my high school. More than that, she sounded like Amber! Amber I must state was this tiny super cute little girl that was into fantasy stuff and I really wanted to be like her, around her, had a crush on her because she was so cool to me.
so her and this cute youngish guy were hanging out with us and this fat bearded dude. spk wanted to fuck Amber but I couldn't let him. It was really heart wrenching too. I cried and cried and felt very alone. the fat guy, I had a feeling, was supposed to be into me too but he didn't defend me at all. I felt very unloved.
Then we were outside and I was still crying at spk but he looked at me sternly and told me that he was going to do her anyway. It was his right for putting up with me. I was miserable at this point but he went off with her and her man leaving me alone. while alone, I saw a hazy vision of something white with wings and I think it was either a swan or an angel.
well I woke up. and I mean fully woke up. I was pissed so I wrote down what I saw and stared at spk's sleeping form hoping he wouldn't betray me. I didn't wake him up. I just took another hit and went back to sleep when I could.
here's the weird part...I actually was able to re-enter the same world I was in before. This is SUPER RARE folks, not just for me but I think for the rest of the world too. I met up with Amber again in there, spk was there too, and although i was super pissed at both of them...I had the sense he had fucked her or got rather close even though I protested...I talked to her. I rambled on about my feelings and I told her what had happened. She gasped and said the angel, if it was an angel, was the symbol shared between her and her late husband. If I had seen it, it meant that he was trying to find her. I kind of attempted to deny it, I really thought it was a swan, but I kept thinking and her theory made sense. I had to ask though why i was the psychic messenger girl and all she could tell me was because I was good at it. she kissed spk goodbye and told everyone there that she had to work on finding the angel guy instead of being a hedonist.
This is when i woke up and failed to understand anything. according to spk, we were talking about this girl online that had sent me an email and wanted to get to know me, and he really wants her so i was freaking out about him leaving me for her. she's 20, has a great body, likes girls, is into swinging, yeah of course I worry honey! you're awesome and I don't want to lose you! I don't want to keep pointing at my childhood but the abandonment issue is there!
arrghhh oh yeah, in other news, my computer at home has been entirely reinfected wtih the stuff that I got out of it the last time. I have no idea how or why it happened. I am just backing things up until it takes a shit. although, at this time, I am unsure if I care when it takes a shit. I have all the important shit on disk, my thesis, and if all the other pics and essays die, I guess that is life.
Besides, I will probably just cave and buy a new one in the next year or so.
that's it for today folks! wish my computer much health.