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when will the period fairy come? ok ate the bagel from heaven coated with buzz and it was all good. yeeahhhaaaww for cheese bagels for they are jesus. I have no idea how to say what I want to say. I am unsure about being brutally honest, but that is the point of this, isn't it? so here goes... I was freaked today, I am no longer but I was freaked again like I am every month waiting for my period. I got the usual twitches yesterday so I jammed my fingers in searching for evidence -I like to catch it before it hits my undies, although I am sure after this anecdote everyone will be running from me- and got nothing, well nothing but juice. So I slapped on a pad and prayed for the period fairy to come overnight. I woke up feeling a little crampy and went -yay period!- I had the pad on, it felt comfy -thank god to anyone who designed the thin pads-, and I was ready to see the damage. went to the bathroom, jammed the fingers in again, nada. so this is about where I get worried. I go on the computer, look for stuff and think about my body. I have cramps, I have a headache, I feel nauseated -that's the biggie, I can't eat without feeling like puking so I need weed to survive the cramps and the stomach issues-, so where's the big thing? and then we go into pregnancy worries and things like that. while this goes on I get more and more tired and just before I leave I check myself again and happiness! my cramps are worse -time to get high- but there is blood, blood on my hand! and then I realize that my toilet is still stopped up and now I have a huge amount of toilet paper in it with blood and some solid waste... and yea, I feel bad about that. I didn't want to leave it there but I don't have a plunger. The maintenance guys have to face this one. I need them to unclog the toilet, I phoned before leaving for work and I hope that they check their messages, and I can't not shit in my own toilet. Piss, yeah, I could do that in the shower, but I am not not shitting in my shitter. Sorry, I can't do it anywhere else, Tios maybe, but not anywhere in my house so now they have that to look at. So I am guilty of being a bitch on that count today. my other issue is a boss issue, but we will see where that goes today. I am little sick of working so hard but only getting told I am screwing up. He almost pushed me over the edge yesterday so I left when I got a chance to and talked to Blondie for awhile. It helped and she fed me some scoobie snacks later. oh I almost forgot. I went to meijer's yesterday and weighed myself. Blondie took me and I weigh the same as I ever did but just rearranged. I like my new shape but if I weigh the same I am a little disappointed, especially because I am now a bit heavier than I look. If you want email me a guess of how much I weigh and I will mail you the correct answer. From what I hear when I ask people, it is a 20lbs difference, which is about what my doctor said the last time I saw him. Not that I hate muscle, just want to hit a single digit dress size and the only reason I began to wonder was that I thought about phoning for modeling stuff and I wanted to make sure that I look like the size I quote. anyway, coming down off of the buzz...good thing too because in half an hour my big boss will be in. I wish that he would be sick or something but I only have to live through til five then I will be free for two whole days. :P oh yeah spk and I have a sat date with a couple that I really like. I think the stated purpose is to play cards but we will see where that goes ;) daphne |